What I Really Didn’t Want to Do for a Whole Year

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Last year, Musu spent a whole 365 days focusing on her “one word” for the year: Rest  She didn’t go in without a fight and shares some of what she learned.

By Musu Taylor-Lewis | Twitter: @mercycanada

My one word bubbled up from the words of a long-buried song.

During an anxiety-filled, hand-wringing, Lord-do you-hear me prayer time,

the words came up from deep within in me, like dew-drops covering a parched soul.

“Sweep over my soul

Sweep over my soul

Sweet Spirit, sweep over my soul

My rest is complete as I sit at your feet

Sweet Spirit, sweep over my soul.”

On the eve of 2011, “rest” became my one word. My prayer partner confirmed the word for me, but didn’t quite know how to tell me, knowing I had so many real reasons for my “Lord,-do-you-hear-me” moment.

At the time my reaction was: “Rest? Really? That’s it, Lord? After a year of ‘Be still,’ now You say, ‘Rest?'”

As I look back now, I am grateful for the lessons of the year, repeated over, and over again. (Who knew so many sermons  would include this theme!)

As a solution-finding, I-can-do-it-myself, conflict-resolving, Mom-knows-what-you-need, fight-for-what’s-right kind of girl, I needed to learn how to rest in the knowledge of God’s ability to take care of all the things that brought me to my anxiety-filled moments.

In rest, I have found the joy of listening for God’s voice.

In rest, I have learned to depend on God’s all-surpassing wisdom.

In rest, I have learned to relinquish my need to be the hero.

“In rest, I am learning that there is a time to speak and a time to be silent.”

In rest, I have felt the strength of God’s hands upholding me.

In rest, I have seen God’s miraculous provision.

In rest, I have watched from the sidelines as God works in my children.

In rest, I am learning to trust God to work with me and without me.

The verse that remained with me through the year?

There remains, then, a Sabbath-rest for the people of God; for anyone who enters God’s rest also rests from their works, just as God did from his. Let us, therefore, make every effort to enter that rest, so that no one will perish by following their example of disobedience. – Heb 4: 9 – 11

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Dear SheLoves friends:

  • About a week into our month, what insights have you already gained as we collectively lean into “rest?”
  • How would you complete the sentence: “In rest, I … “
  • Any other thoughts or comments?

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About Musu:

My life is lived out of the calling “to advance Christ-centred work.” I am currently Director of Marketing and Development at Mercy Ministries, working to get the word out about the life-transforming work that takes place here. Prior to my work at Mercy, I directed a Crisis Pregnancy Centre, studied Christianity and Culture at Regent College and co-led women’s programs at my local church. I have four great children and am married to Steven, a gift to me from the Creator.

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Idelette McVicker
I like soggy cereal and I would like to go to every spot on the map of the earth to meet our world’s women. I dream of a world where no women or girls are for sale. I dream of a world where women and men are partners in doing the work that brings down a new Heaven on earth. My word last year was “roar” and I learned it’s not about my voice rising as much as it is about our collective voices rising in unison to bring down walls of injustice. This year, my own word is “soar.” I have three children and this place–right here, called shelovesmagazine.com–is my fourth baby. I am African, although my skin colour doesn’t tell you that story. I am also a little bit Chinese, because my heart lives there amongst the tall skyscrapers of Taipei and the mountains of Chiufen. Give me sweet chai and I think I’m in heaven. I live in Vancouver, Canada and I pledged my heart to Scott 11 years ago. I believe in kindness and calling out the song in each other’s hearts. I also believe that Love covers–my gaps, my mistakes and the distances between us. I blog at idelette.com and tweet @idelette.
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  • In rest I admit that I am not God.

    • Musu

      Amen, amen, amen!

  • Nanc’

    In rest I shall heal. I loved hearing about resting for a year. I am a middle aged physician and I just took the summer off. I found myself sleeping a/o resting most of the time. I wasn’t depressed. In fact, I am having the best summer ever. But I just tried to listen to my body and do what it needed. I have fibromyalgia and fatigue is always right around the corner. I am trying to work out how to continue to practice resting once I go back to work this fall. There are only so many hours in the day. But hearing how Musu was able to rest and commit to this word, even when she didn’t always want to has inspired me. Thanks for this post.

    • Musu

      in our hurried world it is so easy to forget how much physical rest contributes to our healing. Thanks for the reminder

  • I was unaware of a collective leaning into rest. probably because I was already there. I must be honest and describe my rest as coming from a place of “worn” flowing out of my One Word- Courage. It has taken much courage for a girl like me to rest, but I’ve been given no other option. My journey this last year and a half has left me healed, yet worn, therfore I find myself resting physically while going deeper into the places of God within my unfamiliar landscape. I have learned to love this place of resting in the healing of my marriage and the learning of who I am. It is in rest that I am becoming aquainted with this new me, the one whom forgives the woman her husband had an affair with, even sharing a meal with her. I wrote about that journey last week on my blog. A story only God could pen as I am resting…..
    I love your words
    “Sweet Spirit, sweep over my soul.” Thank you for sharing your rest with us.

    • Musu

      “It is in rest that I am becoming acquainted with this new me” I relate to that so much through my journey with rest.

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