Self, 3.0

I’m trying to learn to code. You know, the HTML kind that builds websites. But sometimes when I’m typing, it feels a little bit like Morse code, an “S.O.S.” I’m learning, one character and bracket at a time, to send out into my future. Don’t get lost. — “<br>” : Break. A space, a margin, […]

Am I My Sister’s Keeper?

This is a confession. A few months ago, I ended a friendship. I did it badly. This isn’t really about whether or not the friendship should have ended. It needed to, for a lot of messy and tangled reasons. Maybe this is taboo, but I’ve learned the hard way that some friendships are meant to […]

A Survival Guide for the Rollercoaster of Faith

I’m pushing carrots around my plate with my fork, lost in thought after a long and heavy day, when my husband asks, “Do you want to go to church this Sunday?” I snap out of my dark reverie in surprise. “Why? Do you?” “Yes?” It comes out more question than answer. I don’t respond right away. […]

Deconstructing the Narratives

In June, my husband and I purchased new phones. This may not seem particularly noteworthy to some, but you have to understand that by the time we finally got new phones, I had had my iPhone 4 for nearly four years. It had a shattered screen, it had stopped saving my text messages, it had […]

The Year That Changed Me

There’s only one other time in my memory when I did not wish for a new year to come. Normally, I ring in the New Year with eagerness, full of hope for a fresh start. But 2012 was different. I was saying goodbye to my mother in the last days of 2011. She went to […]