Nightmares and Cosmic Gifts

When I was offered a new job earlier this summer, a strange thing happened. I started having nightmares. It wasn’t that I was afraid of the new opportunity or unhappy with the offer. In fact, just the opposite. It was an offer so substantial that it was going to dramatically change our circumstances and allow […]

When You Live in the Fear of Inevitability

I sat quietly in the exam room, waiting. The walls were a dull, slate grey, a far cry from the waiting room full of natural sunlight and designer furniture specifically arranged to make us forget where we were. There were no windows in this exam room, no pictures. The small stack of magazines on a […]

A Living Thing

I’ve had a complicated relationship with prayer for a long time now. Most likely, it started around the time that I realized that ten years of praying for God to heal my mom’s cancer hadn’t come true. I know–that last sentence sounds more like a genie in a bottle, my prayers like desperate scratches at […]

A Prayer for the Complicated Legacy

It was a rainy morning drive to work, and I was tired. My golden retriever decided not to sleep the night before and my anxiety decided to keep him company, so I only got three hours of sleep. I was recovering from a nasty cold and, of course, I was noticing the telltale signs that […]

I Give You Your Faults

“Meg, I give you your faults.” “My faults!” Meg cried. “Your faults.” “But I’m always trying to get rid of my faults!” “Yes,” Mrs. Which said. “However, I think you’ll find that they’ll come in handy on Camazotz.” // I recently reread one of my favorite childhood novels, A Wrinkle in Time, in preparation for […]