How I Learned to See the Future

I got my first job in the hair industry at 15. At the time, I was technically homeless and not going to school either. I answered an ad to a small shop hiring a receptionist/apprentice. At that time, you could earn a trade license through an apprenticeship. I worked for a quirky Japanese man who was cheeky, but […]

The Gift of Loneliness

Ten months after my son was born, I was diagnosed with postpartum depression. At the time, I was heavily involved in my church. I served in leadership, ran a cell group in my home and worked in our community outreach. My depression ate at me. The more I tried to ignore it, the more it […]

I Want a Big LOVE Campaign

I stepped out of the car, feeling both a looming dread and a sense of relief. It was finally going to be over. I’d never felt so terrified, lost, and alone. My driver hustled me past some people standing outside the building. They tried to pass me something. I stretched out my hand, but my companion pushed me […]

When the Fertility Fairy Goes MIA

“Are you going to have more kids?” I look at my only child, playing and grinning from ear to ear. God, I love him. I feel a stab in my heart as disappointment and grief flood in. I don’t want him to be alone in life. But his dad and I have been trying for […]

Don’t Tell Me I’m a Good Person

It wasn’t easy for me growing up. My best Christmas ever was very close to being my most crushing. It was the year I desperately wanted an E.T. doll. I wanted that doll so bad, I could almost see it. I talked about it non-stop. That year, I could sense something was different with my […]