Fighting Fire With Love

Each week during the winter months of the year just past, our Confirmation students would arrive, shivering in the central California coolness, for our very early 8:45 a.m. Sunday classes. My husband would gather wood from a nearby pile and light a fire in the lovely fireplace in our gathering space. One by one, the girls […]

Resistance is My Stance of Hope

Some people call it deconstructing or unsettling. I feel like I’m just trying to sort stuff out. I was raised in the church. I went to Sunday School, Girls’ Club, Youth Group and Church Camp. I was taught all the stories, memorized all the bible verses and could hold my own in a “sword” drill. […]

Jesus was Not Patriotic

I love being part of something larger than myself. I love belonging to an expansive view—to lift up my eyes and know that my small life is not all there is. There is a world and a God so much bigger and more expansive than I can even dream or imagine. I love God—Creator of […]

How Do We Hold Space for the Church AND Those Who Have Been Hurt by the Church?

How do we hold space for the Church and those who have been hurt by the Church at the same time? That question was posed to me recently. Yeah, no big deal. Simple answer. Whatever. Are you kidding me? This question is at the core of something I have been wrestling with for months. I […]

Jesus and Lexapro

[Trigger warning: Content includes mention of depression and suicide.] I am 34 years old. I’ve had depression and anxiety since I was 12. I attempted suicide twice. A psychiatrist later confirmed I had C-PTSD (Complex Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder) from events in my childhood and later, in my years spent serving in missions overseas. After the […]