The Sacrament of Childbirth

I was shocked by how similar childbirth was to watching my father-in-law die. There is the pacing, the patience, the impatience, the watching for signs of death—or life. The living room transforms into a tunnel where the outside world is fuzzy and out of focus and inside, all senses are heightened. As the time for […]

Hidden Identity

As an adopted person I’ve lived with the reality of a hidden history. My origin story remains unknown to me, sealed by a court order for almost 50 years now. I know little about my mother—just that she was Mexican and an accountant at the time of my birth. When I was three months old […]

Does God Want Mediocrity for Me?

Unpacking boxes after our recent move, I spotted a long-forgotten envelope. On it, I had written my parents’ home address in pencil. Unfolding the paper from the envelope, I remembered sprawling out on the carpeted floor of our church youth room with twenty other teenagers, scribbling out our goals on church letterhead paper. Our youth […]

I Wanted a God Moment, I Got Granola

“Everything in here is for you.” She gestured to the large wooden crate resting on the rustic island. My eyes widened as I peeked inside. Wrapped in brown paper was a freshly baked loaf of bread. Nestled beside it, a large glass jar of homemade coconut granola, a bar of dark chocolate and the most […]

Courageous, Generous, Relentless Hope

The space between Christmas and New Year’s can be an odd time. For some, the celebrations are over, the gifts have been given and there’s a lull in the action until the 31st. For others, the mad dash of the season is still in full swing, and for some the celebrations never really got started. […]