Babies

There’s an 11-year-old girl who, whenever she sees me, asks when I’m going to have a baby. After trying my best to conceal my panic and shock, I gently remind her that I’m in my mid 20s and don’t plan on thinking about having kids any time soon. The girl refuses to accept my feeble […]

Though My Voice Shakes

I’m going to let you in on a little secret: 95% of the time I feel entirely unqualified for the life I’m living. I have an incomplete Political Science/Literature degree. I dropped out of Bible school, I’ve spent the majority of the last 18 years as a stay-at-home mom and pretty much everything I know, […]

Nightmares and Cosmic Gifts

When I was offered a new job earlier this summer, a strange thing happened. I started having nightmares. It wasn’t that I was afraid of the new opportunity or unhappy with the offer. In fact, just the opposite. It was an offer so substantial that it was going to dramatically change our circumstances and allow […]

The Ache

The rain has stopped, for now. It fell in leaden sheets all morning, slanting hard and sharp. The gutters struggling to keep up. The ruts in the driveway filling to excess. The worms floating. But now the sun has broken through and the sodden earth attempts to rise. The air that hangs between them is […]

A Living Thing

I’ve had a complicated relationship with prayer for a long time now. Most likely, it started around the time that I realized that ten years of praying for God to heal my mom’s cancer hadn’t come true. I know–that last sentence sounds more like a genie in a bottle, my prayers like desperate scratches at […]