The First Devil

I finally made an appointment to go back to therapy. I’m not even sure what it was about this particular day that made me do it. It was not my lowest moment. It was definitely not my highest. It was just another day, and I was tired. I was just done with all of the […]

Following God, Even When It Hurts Like Hell

By Beth Watkins | Twitter: @iambethwatkins I grew up reading a great many books about missionaries, pastors, and people in ministry. I listened to people of great faith—people sold out to God, people living radically—and in my tender and impressionable early teenage years, it sometimes made me cry. I felt as though they were speaking right to […]

Jesus is Hilarious

I wish someone told me how funny God is. And I don’t just mean lame pastor joke funny. I mean hysterical. Laugh out loud, long set up, OH MY WORD DID THAT REALLY JUST HAPPEN funny. Y’all. I had no idea. When I was in the third or fourth grade my mom went on an […]

When I Am Not A Lie

“I want to unfold. I don’t want to stay folded anywhere, because where I am folded, there I am a lie.” Rainer Maria Rilke I wake at 6:23 I don’t set an alarm Either my body wakes or the three-year-old satellite that perpetually orbits me enters my atmosphere and crushes me with early morning love […]

How Dare I Get Tired of Fighting Racism?

Here’s the truth: I am tired of fighting racism and even as I type that I can hear my own privilege. I am tired of that too. I spent most of the first half of my life in exclusively white spaces. Everyone in my neighborhood was white, so was everyone at my church, and everyone […]