The Gate

“I had no idea, that the gate I would go through to finally enter this world would be the space my brother’s body made…” // For days now, that first line of Marie Howe’s poem “The Gate” has been echoing in my mind. Sometimes, my subconscious swaps out the word “brother” for “mother,” and I […]

Frequencies That Soar

Do you ever have those moments when everything within you can no longer stay within? When the emotion deep in your gut–right there in the heart of your stomach–fills up to capacity and, for survival, you have to let it all out? In those moments, did you, too, leave your house and drive off in […]

Out Of the Garden

What they don’t tell you about faith is how often you will find yourself standing in your kitchen doing something supremely ordinary, while asking the most earth-shattering questions of your life. I thought that if I stopped going to church that I would spare myself the sting of the unanswerable, but instead, I’m standing at […]

Am I My Sister’s Keeper?

This is a confession. A few months ago, I ended a friendship. I did it badly. This isn’t really about whether or not the friendship should have ended. It needed to, for a lot of messy and tangled reasons. Maybe this is taboo, but I’ve learned the hard way that some friendships are meant to […]

Doing Hard Things Scared

Fear. Damn it, I hate fear. I wish I didn’t know it so well. I wish its tentacles didn’t wrap around my heart and my soul so deeply, sometimes sapping my courage like some kind of cruel sport. Fear kills. Fear destroys. Fear paralyzes. Fear maims. But I’m learning something important right now about fear, […]