Wretchedly Familiar: When Life Feels Unfair

Wasn’t it just two months ago that I wrote about lament in this space? I checked, friends, and yes, it was. In September. Today, I find myself needing to return to those songs-in-a-minor-key for a while longer. October’s theme opened my sad heart to a season of rejoicing, for remembering all of the gracious things […]

Pumpkin Patch and Pregnancy Loss

By Liz Mannegren | Twitter:@LizMannegren [ Trigger warning:⚠️ Miscarriage and still birth.] As we wade through mud, the soggy earth squelches over the toes of my pink boots and sucks at the rubber soles. Corn ripens in the nearby maze, and the smell of hay and manure mingle with the fresh October air. I breathe in […]

When Your Prayer Doesn’t Heal Me (and how you should react)

It’s an ordinary day in the run-up to Christmas and we’re out in town to look for presents. Then, on High Street, we see people with bright clothes and a sign advertising healing prayer, scanning the crowd and looking despondent. Their eyes alight on me, and immediately they brighten. From their scattered positions, they all […]

When Sex Isn’t Magical

by Anonymous I carefully string the beads on a wisp of fishing wire. They’re clear blue, about ten of them. Then I thread the letters: T-R-U-E L-O-V-E W-A-I-T-S. More blue beads. I tie it round my wrist, feeling accomplished. This will fix everything. / / / / I came of age in the late nineties. […]

First, the Tomb

The rain falls steadily, beating against the translucent plastic of the skylight across the hall from where I write. It’s a drumbeat that reminds me that fruitfulness requires dark, wet days. Lots and lots of dark, wet days. Life continues to teach me that there is no resurrection without the darkness of death; there is […]