Does God Want Mediocrity for Me?

Unpacking boxes after our recent move, I spotted a long-forgotten envelope. On it, I had written my parents’ home address in pencil. Unfolding the paper from the envelope, I remembered sprawling out on the carpeted floor of our church youth room with twenty other teenagers, scribbling out our goals on church letterhead paper. Our youth […]

Becoming

I wish I were, but I’m not. I wish I were wise and good and gentle and kind. I wish I were delightful and loving and caring. I wish I were calm and demure. I wish I were gracious and humble. I wish I were chill and even-keeled and steady. I wish I were forgiving […]

A Little Light, Please

I am not afraid of winter. I am a Pacific Northwest stereotype through and through. I wear boots and wool plaid lumberjack coats and slouchy beanies and I trek outdoors in the rain with a grin on my face. I can handle the long, dark days and the incessant rain and the bare trees. I […]

The Tangled Truth of Love

“Enmeshed.” That was the word she used. She intertwined her fingers and tugged her hands, but they didn’t come apart. “It sounds like your identity was wrapped up in hers. When she died, a part of you did too.” I nodded, crying wordlessly. “It sounds like you need to rediscover yourself, as your self. Separate […]

Spinning Straw Into Gold

These last few days of the year hang a little jagged. They are hemming in a collection of words and doings and dreams and dust and there are loose threads about. There is much that I want to forget. So many crystalline words and hasty decisions and all that revisionist history and tunnel vision, not […]