Motherhood Un-Wisdom

My stomach precedes me as I navigate between cramped tables and chairs. I wave to aunts I haven’t seen since the last family wedding and cousins who look impossibly grown up. It couldn’t have been that long ago we were skating in woolen slippers around Oma’s kitchen floor, devouring pans of her impossibly good Rice […]

Luddite for Lent: A Phone-Fasting Testimony

I did it. For Lent, I dumbed my Smartphone down to calls, texts, podcasts and maps, uninstalled all social media, and disabled my internet browser. Then I sank into the silence and waited. At first, it felt like a house when the power goes out—too quiet. Where is the buzzing refrigerator noise I never noticed […]

Lonely at Church

By Kelly Christian |  Instagram I sat in my seat at church and began to write a prayer that said, “I thought I was okay. But I’m not. I really need your people, Lord.” For the last nine months we have been attending a new church and until recently I have joked that this is […]

When Sex Isn’t Magical

by Anonymous I carefully string the beads on a wisp of fishing wire. They’re clear blue, about ten of them. Then I thread the letters: T-R-U-E L-O-V-E W-A-I-T-S. More blue beads. I tie it round my wrist, feeling accomplished. This will fix everything. / / / / I came of age in the late nineties. […]

The Land of Tears

“It is such a secret place, the land of tears.” —Antoine de Saint-Exupéry,The Little Prince The land of tears is a place I’ve visited many times over my life; a strange and secret country, indeed. I could say it feels familiar, except that it doesn’t. Not quite. Each visit is unique, bringing its own sadness, regret, […]