Cut Open

Our colorful nativity set was placed on a table beside our box TV that year. We were weeks away from welcoming our first child and I was overcome with anxiety about giving birth. Just days before Christmas, my husband and I wrote our biggest-fears-turned-biggest-prayers onto ripped-up printer paper and laid them before the baby Jesus’ […]

Reclaiming My Brain: I am Not Stupid

I can still hear her scolding reprimand. I was in Grade 10 and my teacher had yelled at me in front of the entire class, telling me that I should probably just quit taking her Math class because I was going to fail it anyway. She went on to say that because I was interested […]

The Land of Tears

“It is such a secret place, the land of tears.” —Antoine de Saint-Exupéry,The Little Prince The land of tears is a place I’ve visited many times over my life; a strange and secret country, indeed. I could say it feels familiar, except that it doesn’t. Not quite. Each visit is unique, bringing its own sadness, regret, […]

Frequencies That Soar

Do you ever have those moments when everything within you can no longer stay within? When the emotion deep in your gut–right there in the heart of your stomach–fills up to capacity and, for survival, you have to let it all out? In those moments, did you, too, leave your house and drive off in […]

Holding the Space

As with all painful seasons that take us by surprise, there were some overwhelmingly beautiful aspects of my time in Chile; but the first year, in particular, was the darkest of my life. It was a year that stripped me of my assumptions about God and my faith in humankind. It nearly swallowed me whole. […]