The Space of a Breath

“Always, we begin again.” I imagine St. Benedict pausing as he writes down these words in his Rule of Life, and looking up at me, gazing intensely at me to see if I am hearing him, if I am understanding this most important of lines. He knows, I think. What it’s like to be a […]

The Art of Loving Long and Slow

I slip into the kitchen at the first hint of light and start the coffee. I drop two pieces of raisin bread into the toaster and just before the smell of warm cinnamon curls around the doorway, my dad appears. He smiles full on, like the sun that has now risen, and then quickly catches […]

Under My Skin

There is such a thing as radiantly pregnant, and let me assure you I wasn’t it. On a scale of perfectly-happy to prepare-for-PTSD, the last trimester of my last pregnancy red-lined towards the traumatic. I had gestational diabetes, a baby with a “shadow” on his ultrasound that needed to be “monitored,” and a bad case […]

Love is Not Supposed to be Easy

Recently there was a thread on Reddit that stopped me in my tracks. There was a woman—we’ll call her Jane—who was looking for some relationship advice. Months earlier Jane had bought a pair of tickets to Hamilton—the musical sensation that is taking over Broadway. She was planning to take her mom for a week’s vacation […]

For the Love of Big Sisters

I didn’t really grow up with my three sisters. The age gap between us meant they grew up with each other and I grew up with my brothers. In my memories, my sisters have always been adults. Even when they weren’t quite old enough to drive, they were old enough to care for me and […]