In Which I’m Pretending to Be Close to God

White blades sliced the sky as a field of giant windmills pounded the air, their arms ambling round and round in rhythm. We were beginning our bi-annual night drive from the Midwest back home to Colorado. Our three kids were clad in PJ’s and snuggling stuffed animals in their car seats, readying themselves for a […]

I Long for the New Earth

“I’ve been painting since I was young,” my five-year-old recently told a friend. My friend and I laughed about Bea’s tendency to frame her life experiences as though she were an old woman, looking back over the years. She loves phrases like, back in the day and remember when to tell stories of her half-decade […]

Return to Your Rest, O My Soul

It wasn’t like I stopped loving God. It was more like I stopped liking God. God had disappointed me, and I didn’t know how to make it all straight in my head. I continued to pray and seek God’s will. To obey. And it was honest. There was nothing false about it. A lot had […]

What are you turning toward?

A lot of people I know are healing in a wide variety of ways. I am, too. Some of us are finding their way forward after a radical shift in faith, a broken relationship, a shattered dream. Others are discovering their voice for the first time, leaning into a passion that they hadn’t given themselves […]

Loving Our Younger Selves

It was cold and overcast on our daughter’s Gotcha Day. We drove away from the adoption agency in a small, navy blue van with another adoptive family. Our little girl rode on my lap, still unaware of what was happening. She went from playing with the new toys we’d given her to looking up at […]