I’m Not Fine

I gave up self-sufficiency for Lent. I didn’t really want to, but I felt like I didn’t have much of a choice. This semester has come on full speed ahead. A few days before it started, I was given an appointment as a head pastor of a small church. I’m taking 15 credit hours. I […]

I Am Undone

In my therapy session this week (yes, I talk to a therapist every week and have done so for 25 years), the word that emerged was: undone. Exactly right. The entire session had felt like a chaotic purge of some sort, one story after another came tumbling out, seemingly unconnected. And yet, as she so […]

A Mild Case of the Januarys

By Shaley Hoogendoorn | Instagram:@messybeautywithshaley TRIGGER WARNING: The following post contains topics about mental health matters and eating disorders. If you are struggling with any mental health issues, we hope you will reach out and seek professional help. To watch Shaley’s full video, click here. Below is an edited transcription. Email subscribers, please click through to the website to watch the video.  […]

When Leaves Prophesy

The sky was cluttered with autumn leaves like flying fairies set free that morning. They fell from the places where they had been previously huddled together on their own branched bubbles of gold, rusty-red and orange. As we drove to my overdue eye-appointment, my daughter shrieked with delight after a big gust of wind brought […]

Sweaty, Exhausting Peace

I stare at the black metal bar above me. It looks a mile away. I need to jump to reach it. Just the thought of stretching my arms above my head makes my shoulders ache. They’re still sore from two days ago. I steal a glance at the clock, and watch the seconds tick methodically […]