Becoming

I wish I were, but I’m not. I wish I were wise and good and gentle and kind. I wish I were delightful and loving and caring. I wish I were calm and demure. I wish I were gracious and humble. I wish I were chill and even-keeled and steady. I wish I were forgiving […]

Slow Everything Down

I’m a fast person. I type fast. I walk fast. I talk fast. I get tasks done fast. I’m just not a tortoise; I’m definitely a hare. My husband, Jose, always teases me that I can do the same task as him in half the time. This is a good quality in some ways. I […]

I Thought My Marriage Was a Huge Mistake (It Wasn’t)

Our shame is the enemy of someone else’s success. I scribbled this sentence on the back of an old Taco Bell receipt and stuck it on our fridge the night of our first counseling session. We had been married less than six months and I felt like I had ruined both our lives when I […]

First, the Tomb

The rain falls steadily, beating against the translucent plastic of the skylight across the hall from where I write. It’s a drumbeat that reminds me that fruitfulness requires dark, wet days. Lots and lots of dark, wet days. Life continues to teach me that there is no resurrection without the darkness of death; there is […]

The Capacity of Stomachs and Schedules

Our stomachs are incredible organs: like the stretchiest of balloons, they can expand in size from a fraction of a cup to well over eight cups when full. Think of the hours after a feast like Thanksgiving Dinner: cups and cups of turkey, pie, and mashed potatoes sloshing around, with those who didn’t wear stretchy […]