When Seasons Don’t Fit Into Neat Boxes

I recently visited an abbey about two hours north of us, near the Wyoming border, for a personal retreat. My plan was to spend a couple days in reflection and silence. I brought way too many books, my journal, my computer (just in case), and my hiking shoes. I wanted to rest, read, and reflect. […]

Jesus, Dig Me Out of These Weeds

By Anika Ortiz | Instagram: @anikacortiz Since we live near rivers, my husband, Matt, thought having a canoe sounded lovely. I agreed. Just not this one! The holes in the hull confirmed my suspicion that this boat would sink the moment it met water. The peeled blue paint and the nails poking where the railings used […]

Motherhood Un-Wisdom

My stomach precedes me as I navigate between cramped tables and chairs. I wave to aunts I haven’t seen since the last family wedding and cousins who look impossibly grown up. It couldn’t have been that long ago we were skating in woolen slippers around Oma’s kitchen floor, devouring pans of her impossibly good Rice […]

Thinking of the Next Big Thing

I spent 15 years of my life dancing. Everyone gasps at the show-stopper steps, but I’ll tell you a secret: the bedrock of ballet is the “transition” steps: the rather quotidian, easy movements that three-year-olds learn their very first class. A pile is a straight-up knee-bend. First position places your heels together, toes turned out, like a dove’s […]

A Sojourner in a Foreign Land

The sound of the waves has faded into memory by now and the story of deliverance threatens to dissipate right along with it. Free from bondage, witnesses to miracles beyond belief, we thought we’d be settled by now. As our feet dig circles in the burning sand we understand why. We are still living in […]