Love Doesn’t Break Down Love


She was dying when she said it. Dying slowly, but still dying. I was supposed to be taking care of her. It was my job, swing shift in a nursing home, to help her get ready for bed in the way you do with people who don’t get out of bed. But this evening I had come […]

Talking To My Inner Toddler


The day started off well enough. I woke before my 19-month-old son did, the one sleeping in the crook of my arm, and that miracle afforded me a minute to adjust my eyes to the morning light seeping through the curtains and for my groggy brain to conjure up one complete thought. I sighed, audibly. […]

What I Learned From Being In A Beauty Pageant


I have a dark secret, at least for a feminist. Knowing this is a safe community, and you will not judge decisions of my youth, I confess—one time—to parading in a blue mermaid gown with hair sprayed as high as the Rocky Mountains. No offense to anyone who has been in a beauty pageant. It turned […]

Ten Years and a T-Shirt


The other evening I pulled on an old T-shirt from a punk band I saw when I was a teenager. The sleeves are cut off and it is something I would never leave the house in now, but still, it’s a physical reminder of a time ten years ago, when I went to a concert, […]

Becoming the Woman in the Mirror


Every time I look in the mirror I receive a jolt. Who is this woman staring at me through eyes marked by a spray of smile lines, with hair the colour of antiqued pewter? It’s not the signs of age that shock me—it’s the overall effect. The woman in the mirror looks mature in all senses […]