First, the Tomb

The rain falls steadily, beating against the translucent plastic of the skylight across the hall from where I write. It’s a drumbeat that reminds me that fruitfulness requires dark, wet days. Lots and lots of dark, wet days. Life continues to teach me that there is no resurrection without the darkness of death; there is […]

When You and Your Husband Have Different Callings

When my husband and I met, we knew one of us would have to give up our calling: acting in Chicago for him, or teaching in China for me. Due for time back in the states, I gave up China. And because of the nature of marriage and parenting three children four and under, he […]

Finding Capacity in the Wilderness

By Devi Duerrmeier | Twitter: @deviduerrmeier A year after we had our second son, my life started to come apart. I could look at the years before and see the signs: two international moves, a still-new marriage, family deaths, two children. And those were the obvious stressors. My German mother-in-law came to visit us, and […]

How Much Can A Heart Really Hold?

I remember the first time I read it. I was in college and at a friend’s house. She and some other friends and I went to get something out of her room and covering the walnut brown door a poster said this: “Nobody has ever measured, not even poets, how much the heart can hold.” […]

When the Refugee Crisis Costs Me Something

“Your turn,” Asha called from across the lawn. She hoisted herself out of the peddle car she had been “driving” around our large circular driveway, then lifted her four-year old from the back of the contraption. He’d been clinging to his mom while she zoomed down the driveway. I made my way past the old […]