When Your Pants and Your Life Don’t Fit


I was asking God to help me lose weight. Instead He made me buy bigger pants. You see, I had been praying to God that my pants would fit. Not those words exactly, but for sure I had been praying all around that topic. God give me more discipline, more will power, help me to […]

My Secret Stash of Not-Okayness


I should have worn my blue jammies. The flannel ones with the dancing milk and cookies. I wanted to. I needed to. But I stuffed them back in the drawer and pulled on too-tight indigo jeans. I should have left my face bare. But I didn’t want you to see me, salty tears streaked down […]

Here Lies a Fallen Do-Gooder


By Anne Dahlhauser | Twitter: @AnneDahlhauser I suppose it was never supposed to be like this. I have smiley pictures to prove it. And brochures. And even videos of heart-moving scenes to depict laughing children hugging laughing volunteers. It was supposed to be awesome. Everyone believed it to be. And, somehow, in the midst of […]

Rebirth in the Psych Ward


Not many places on earth lend themselves to the acute aspiration and suffocating defeat of a psych ward. Especially when you’re an adolescent. My husband works in such a place. His name is Jason. He stands at a modest 5’9”, average build, but with eyes that could call the confession or compassion out of a […]

When Your Body Talks Back


You step out of the shower. Take a deep breath as the steam slowly creeps up to the ceiling. Inwardly tell yourself to have grace. To speak words of love. Of affirmation. Anything positive will suffice really. You turn to the mirror. You want so badly to love me. But that brick wall of insecurity […]