Choosing to Trust God Again (And Again)


Helen Burns -Selah6

Sometimes something so very ordinary can speak to my heart in a very extraordinary way. This happened for me once again this morning as I washed and blow-dried my hair. Because I am a bit of a clean freak, I always set up the vacuum cleaner before I blow dry my hair so that I can immediately clean up all my hair that has fallen on the floor. Today it struck me once again that God knows everything about me, down to this very small detail–He knows the exact count of the hairs that are left on my head and cares about every single detail of my life.

“Since you are so much more precious to God than a thousand flocks of sparrows, and since God knows you in every detail—down to the number of hairs on your head at this moment—you can be secure and unafraid of any person, and you have nothing to fear from God either.” –Luke 12:7 (The Voice)

These are such precarious and overwhelming days. Just this past week John and I spent time in Australia at the Hillsong Conference and we met up with many friends who are leading churches who shared stories of the current state of affairs in their nation. Just a few of the troubling situations we heard about were:

  • Our friends ministering in Russia who are dealing with the new laws that were just passed that revoke religious freedom for churches like theirs.
  • Our friends in South Sudan who are in grave danger as violence has erupted in the capital city where they are building a church.
  • And of course, our American friends are feeling heartbroken over the racial tension in their nation–and I could go on and on.

Sometimes, I feel so incredibly overwhelmed at all the pain–both in this big, broken world and also in my personal world. I feel it as I sit with my father-in-law in palliative care as he struggles through each day while his body is failing him. Where I stand alongside a mother and pray for her sweet baby girl, born too soon with a heart condition, or for a friend who is pregnant with her fourth child and every day is a struggle and a gift as she waits in hospital praying that baby continues to grow inside her womb.

And yet, here is where I find God in every moment as He assures me that He is holding me, and the whole world in His huge and capable hands. When I think about the very fact that even the individual hairs on my head are numbered by Him and don’t escape His watchful eye, I feel such gratitude and peace. I choose again to trust this God with absolutely everything that concerns me and those I love.

“God’s love is meteoric, his loyalty astronomic, His purpose titanic, his verdicts oceanic. Yet in his largeness nothing gets lost; Not a man, not a mouse, slips through the cracks.” –Psalm 36:5-6 (The Message)

I love how my Amplified Bible expresses a selah moment–it invites us to, “Selah, pause and think calmly about that.” Too often I race by the moments where God is inviting me to pause and stop thinking about thoughts that overwhelm me, instead choosing to put my attention on Him, allowing Him to carry me. That’s the only place where I can find rest and quiet peace for my anxious soul.

Many years ago while still in my teens, I sang in a choir where I learned a song called “A Quiet Place” that still often speaks to my heart …

There is a quiet place far from the rapid pace
Where God can soothe my troubled mind.
Sheltered by tree and flower, there in my quiet hour with him
My cares are left behind.

(A Quiet Place, Ralph Carmichael, 1967)

I pray that this simple truth speaks to your heart today and perhaps next time you are combing your hair, or vacuuming it off the floor–you might pause to think how much God loves you and cares about every single detail of your life. All that is weighing your heart and mind down, give it to Him to carry. He is so much better at it than we are.

“Are you tired? Worn out? Burned out on religion? Come to me. Get away with me and you’ll recover your life. I’ll show you how to take a real rest. Walk with me and work with me—watch how I do it. Learn the unforced rhythms of grace. I won’t lay anything heavy or ill-fitting on you. Keep company with me and you’ll learn to live freely and lightly.” –Matthew 11:28-30, (The Message)

Selah. Pause and think calmly about that.