Losing Everything Might Be The Path To Finding It All

Recently my son celebrated his 8th birthday. As always on this day, I think back to the hours before he entered this world—all 9lbs of him, full head of jet-black hair, tight little pink fists. He was my second birth, and the one I remember more clearly. I couldn’t tell you much about the birth […]

The Space Between Us

We say hello and goodbye in less than two hours. The location is an eighteenth century pub in Northern England. It’s our first meeting in over a decade. The one before that dates back further than I can remember. He’s drinking a honey-coloured lager, his back turned from the door. His wife sees me before […]

Why I’m Grateful For My Struggle With Depression

“In the depth of winter I finally learned that there was in me an invincible summer.” —Albert Camus On the days when I feel empty and lost, when I can’t find a reason to put one foot in front of the other, or raise the colorless food that sits on the end of my fork […]

I Have This Audacious Dream

My husband and I pray together at night before we go to sleep. It’s wonderful, and something we’d never done until recently. Sure we prayed around the dinner table and in church, but the heartfelt prayers? They were for God’s ears alone, until our relationship caved and we were hanging on by a thread. Prayer […]

Where Are You Hiding?

The memory is clear: six years ago, I was sitting behind the wheel of my car at an intersection close to my home, waiting for the light to turn green. I was singing along to a song on the radio: “… when you feel like you’re done And the darkness has won Babe, you’re not […]