The Hard Work of Hope

For several years now I’ve skipped, or seriously toned down, my activities on December 31st and have gone out to greet the new year in the morning instead. I like to drive out to the ocean and stand in the cold wet air and breathe in all that a new year has to offer. I like […]

Your Identity Is Not Failure

About a month ago, I tore a ligament in my knee. Most people who have this injury, get it playing sports. I managed to do it while walking indoors, on carpet. After a trip to the ER my leg was put in an immobilizer, then a very expensive brace I nicknamed the Robot Knee. I […]

Money, Gremlins, and the Voices in My Head

Recently I did something I never thought I would do. I walked into the bank and made an appointment to see a financial planner. For some people this is a very routine thing to do, but not for me. Simply put: I do not have a lot of money. I worked in non-profits for most […]

The Sacrament of Ordinary Work

I had no idea how much stock I put in prestige until it was taken away. For more than a decade I was Senior Editor at a large non-profit. It was a title that has prestige built right into it. When you say “Senior Editor,” people automatically have a pretty decent idea of what you […]

Anxiety, Fertilizer and the Promised Land

I don’t know what anxiety feels like for anyone else, but for me it feels like a fist reaching in to grab and twist my stomach. It is pain and fear and worry and regret. It is a loud voice of accusation that sends me scurrying for cover, and running back over the past few […]