When Your Body Prophesies to You

Two years ago, a very reputable hairdresser used faulty straighteners and burnt my hair. The next day, in the shower, when I was trying to identify the strange odour, I remembered the last time I had smelt it: I was 12 years old, trying to ignite a gas hob, leaning over to check that the […]

When You’re Stuck On Pause

The church loves progress. We love to measure church growth, spiritual growth, numbers, charts, seats. If it isn’t about measuring numbers of people converted, it’s about the quality of our spiritual life, as though it were an eternal ladder we were ascending. Run the race. (FASTER. BETTER.) Keep in step with the Spirit. (Don’t let […]

In Sickness and in Health

At the age of 21, I stood in a ridiculously huge white dress, grinning up at my new husband. We were young—I had graduated from university only a month before—and we were full of life and energy. As we knelt under the grand arch of the nave, we said our wedding vows with a naive […]

Kick Up, Not Down

There are few things more stressful in life than getting on a bus with a stroller and a baby. Job interviews? Public speeches? They have nothing on the stress of folding your stroller with one hand, holding your baby with the other hand, holding your shopping (presumably with the third hand you brought with you […]

All The Things I Cannot Speak

Ask me about being held, and I want to change the subject. Let me tell you instead about when I was the one holding, not being held. I want to tell you about holding my son in my arms for the first time. He was puce and indignant, and I pressed his head close to […]