Carrying and Miscarrying

By Rachel Asres | @raykkel I carried her for nine weeks. I suppose I don’t really know it was a her; it’s just a feeling I have. We would have named her Imogen—made in the image of God, the One who knit her together. She was at once an answer to prayers and a total […]

Thankful For All the Wrong Things

I birthed my first babe a week ago. My unwashed hair is scraped into a lazy bun, my eyes sunken from lack of sleep. I’ve been wearing the same pajamas for days. Shuffling to and from the bathroom is a major event now, and I’m embarrassed by how difficult those few pathetic steps are. It […]

The Hope for Which We Now Labor

It’s true what mothers say about forgetting the pain of childbirth. My births are now seven and nine-and-a-half years ago and I have to strain to remember the details. Giving birth is a moment we spend countless hours preparing for. It is the culmination of reading and birthing classes, showers, reordering our lives and homes, […]

How Many Times Can a Woman Split Open?

Did she catch a glimpse of what was coming as she split open and pushed him with the strength of horses into this world? In that moment, when life and death and blood and air weave themselves together so inextricably, did she have any sense, then, that he was being pulled into the dark? Or […]

How Galaxies Are Born

That first contraction came as a whisper beckoning me from sleep. In places deep and hidden there had been a shift, a pulling of thread. And in my waking I began to unravel. Like the sea before a storm, I roiled. So many waves rose and swelled beneath my bosom. Everything in me gripping, mooring, […]