Will God Show Me a Better Way?

I never was one for maps. My stepdad always liked to sprawl those intricate roadmaps that fold eight ways (and you need eight people to hold) across his lap and study them for hours. I couldn’t even figure out how to properly fold them back up again. Thank goodness for Google and satnavs. I have, […]

I Prayed for Friendship; God Gave Me Sisterhood

“If you want to go fast, go alone. If you want to go far, go together.” ~African proverb I have known two types of friendship in my life. The first was the experience I think many women are familiar with: the relationship in which we feel guarded, unable to be our true selves, and unsure of […]

I Still Choose Love

“I love you,” they would murmur, through yeasty breath and sleepy eyes. Some would say it after just a few days, others in the heightened moment of a sexual encounter. I would soak their words into the hollow crevices of my heart, longing for there to be truth in every intoxicating syllable. That kind of […]

I Did Not Run

When people share their “I knew I loved him when …” stories, I often imagine violin music in the background. Possibly bouquets of flowers. Often some bold, public display. Swooning. Definitely swooning. My own “I know I loved him when” story is uglier. Private. The sound track (if it had one) would definitely not be […]

What Is Your Wall?

The last two years have been, for me, the kind of years that change a person from the inside out. In 2014 I struggled through six months of clinical depression, and at the end of 2015 my marriage ended. The two were not entirely extraneous; one event seemed to fold itself into the other. And […]