It is My Place to Believe in the Church

I grew up in the church. I spent Sunday upon Sunday sitting in the first third of the pews, staring up at the stained glass tree of life, while dutifully taking notes, just in case anyone took notice and needed confirmation that I was, indeed, a pastor’s kid. I looked out at those velvety pews […]

It’s Okay to be Gray

She sat across the table from me, and paused briefly for a bite of salad. She had just delivered The Speech, with all the resoluteness, passion and fire that comes with it. It was not the first time I’d heard The Speech; I’ve encountered versions of it my whole life. I have heard these words […]

Confessions of a White Ally

A good writer zips the reader into their skin, according to Memoirist Mary Karr. A good Christian zips herself into the skin of others. As a white woman researching race, ethnicity and white privilege in the United States, I thought I was doing this—learning empathy, increasing compassion. I read the books, listened to podcasts, shared […]

It’s Time to Hide My Hashtags

Where does the time go? Mostly, my smartphone steals mine. Months ago, I downloaded a simple app to put limits on the time I spend on my phone. I used it for a week, and then gave up. What I didn’t realize was that the app continued tracking my phone usage—for months. When I finally […]

The First Devil

I finally made an appointment to go back to therapy. I’m not even sure what it was about this particular day that made me do it. It was not my lowest moment. It was definitely not my highest. It was just another day, and I was tired. I was just done with all of the […]