Following God, Even When It Hurts Like Hell

By Beth Watkins | Twitter: @iambethwatkins I grew up reading a great many books about missionaries, pastors, and people in ministry. I listened to people of great faith—people sold out to God, people living radically—and in my tender and impressionable early teenage years, it sometimes made me cry. I felt as though they were speaking right to […]

Jesus is Hilarious

I wish someone told me how funny God is. And I don’t just mean lame pastor joke funny. I mean hysterical. Laugh out loud, long set up, OH MY WORD DID THAT REALLY JUST HAPPEN funny. Y’all. I had no idea. When I was in the third or fourth grade my mom went on an […]

When I Am Not A Lie

“I want to unfold. I don’t want to stay folded anywhere, because where I am folded, there I am a lie.” Rainer Maria Rilke I wake at 6:23 I don’t set an alarm Either my body wakes or the three-year-old satellite that perpetually orbits me enters my atmosphere and crushes me with early morning love […]

How Dare I Get Tired of Fighting Racism?

Here’s the truth: I am tired of fighting racism and even as I type that I can hear my own privilege. I am tired of that too. I spent most of the first half of my life in exclusively white spaces. Everyone in my neighborhood was white, so was everyone at my church, and everyone […]

The Elephant in My Mind

I can feel the sweat collecting into a little river trickling down the small of my back. The summer sun is beating down but I think much of the heat is coming from within, my cheeks always flushing when I am uncomfortable. I sit quietly off to myself while laughter drifts by me, a dream-like […]