I Looked for Joy in the Wrong Place

I thought it was gone, but it turns out, I was just looking for it in the wrong place. Four years ago, when my dad died, everything changed. I’m not just speaking in the metaphoric sense that everything changed in grief, but in the very real, physical sense that everything in our wee Forbes world […]

The Gift of Charismatic Tears

Here’s the truth—I cry way too easily. Whenever I am emotionally invested in anything, the tears are never far away. This has been true for me as long as I can remember and it has taken me a long lifetime to learn that these tears are a gift. In truth, they are among the most […]

Out Here on the Brink of Eternity

It’s lonelier than I imagined, this aging thing. I remember being impatient with my dad when we pushed my parents to move from their much-loved last home, built 15 years earlier, into a retirement community a little bit closer to us. He was suffering from Parkinson’s and atherosclerosis and my mom was wearing herself out […]

Failure to Thrive

How long do we need to live somewhere before it feels like home? A year? Two years? Ten? It’s been three years since we relocated from Chicago to Colorado and my husband and I have had approximately 200 conversations about staying, going, and the metaphorical roots, weeds and soil of home. We didn’t anticipate the […]

Anxiety, Fertilizer and the Promised Land

I don’t know what anxiety feels like for anyone else, but for me it feels like a fist reaching in to grab and twist my stomach. It is pain and fear and worry and regret. It is a loud voice of accusation that sends me scurrying for cover, and running back over the past few […]