Something I Carry

By Jenn Zatopek | Facebook I don’t know when the depression started. Did it start during the seemingly interminable winter months when I could barely get out of bed before 9 o’clock in the morning? Or did it start before then−during the holidays with new schedules and more family visits and less time for myself? […]

Things I Have Observed in Silence

I am six years old. The bathtub is full of mediocre bubbles. I am on my back and my hair is floating around my head like so much kelp in the water. The ceiling straight above me has an aging water stain from the ice storm the year before. I stay there until the water […]

What If God is Not Silent?

I was in my early twenties the first time I ever heard someone speak about God being silent. I took the first of a few classes from the poet Luci Shaw. She was a friend of my mom. Luci had written a book about the death of her late husband, Harold, entitled, God in the […]

Letting Go of the Life We Had Planned

By Marlys Johnson | Twitter: @iMarlysJohnson They left a card on our oak dining table wearing an E.M. Forster quote: “We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us.” While I spent my first holiday as a widow with family on […]

In My Grief, I Speak to the Silence

By Tabitha Terlunen | Instagram: @tabithaterlunen [Trigger warning. This post shares about a stillbirth.] There is no silence like the absence of a heartbeat. There is no quiet like an empty crib. She was, then was not. I felt her move and hiccup and kick, and then I felt her be still. I sat in […]