Grief: Living with Unanswerable Questions

by Tabitha Terlunen [Trigger warning: Loss of a child] I have both witnessed and been the recipient of miracles. I have felt God catch me when I stepped out onto the churning waters of faith. I believe in miracles, I know the theology, I can grasp the concept of divine will vs. a fallen world. […]

Losing My Religion and Gaining a Granddaughter

By Rachelle Fehr A year ago today, I became a grandmother.   I had the privilege of being present for the birth and attending to my daughter through four days of labour followed by a difficult birth. I was the person who cut the cord and the first person to lay eyes on my sweet […]

Carrying and Miscarrying

By Rachel Asres | @raykkel I carried her for nine weeks. I suppose I don’t really know it was a her; it’s just a feeling I have. We would have named her Imogen—made in the image of God, the One who knit her together. She was at once an answer to prayers and a total […]

Thankful For All the Wrong Things

I birthed my first babe a week ago. My unwashed hair is scraped into a lazy bun, my eyes sunken from lack of sleep. I’ve been wearing the same pajamas for days. Shuffling to and from the bathroom is a major event now, and I’m embarrassed by how difficult those few pathetic steps are. It […]

When Silence Can’t Be Heard

“Healing takes courage, and we all have courage, even if we have to dig a little to find it.” -Tori Amos I am naked. There is a boy with some sort of facial hair watching me. I am not sure what they gave me, but I know I don’t have a bra on. (Apparently that […]