Shame Is The Great Presence-Killer

Why have I heard from God? Why have I not heard from God? *** I was eight. Each night I got out a book of children’s prayers and tried to connect to God after my parents turned out the lights at bedtime. My family was falling apart that year in spectacular ways—in a few months, […]

Grief: Living with Unanswerable Questions

by Tabitha Terlunen [Trigger warning: Loss of a child] I have both witnessed and been the recipient of miracles. I have felt God catch me when I stepped out onto the churning waters of faith. I believe in miracles, I know the theology, I can grasp the concept of divine will vs. a fallen world. […]

Learning to Let Go

Do you sometimes feel as though you’re carrying around a rucksack full of rocks? Yeah, that’s been true for me, too. Perhaps it has something to do with being a Type Two on the Enneagram. Perhaps it has more to do with being a female of “a certain age.” And maybe it has a heckuva […]

What If God is Not Silent?

I was in my early twenties the first time I ever heard someone speak about God being silent. I took the first of a few classes from the poet Luci Shaw. She was a friend of my mom. Luci had written a book about the death of her late husband, Harold, entitled, God in the […]

When Silence is Hard

I thought meditation would help me feel peaceful. I did not expect it to bring on a near panic-attack. I found the book on listening prayer in my church’s library, a slim paperback, a good twenty years old. I was in my last year in college, a year before I realized I was depressed and […]